PANDI'S PRAYER

Yesterday was a great day. A ride in the warmth of the sun, with wonderful company. My husband behind me, and one of my students with...

A dear friend texted me a few weeks ago; "I love you in the light, I love you just as much in the dark." I don't know if I love me in the...

Rob and I were gifted a trip last week; a cruise to the Eastern Caribbean with his parents and siblings. It was a gift, but one I wasn't...

There is a fine line, and I cross back and forth every day, or even hour. I live in a past with Andrea's smile, and her laugh, her...

She chose her friends not from what she needed, but who needed her. And she loved with 110%...always. She gave her whole heart to...

It is my spring break. I have been with people for 9 days now. I have been without Rob for 9 days. I cried when I left Rob- I've never...

Joy. That's the one word I would use to describe me. It's how I felt. It's how I lived. It bubbled up within me. Spontaneously, my...

The emptiness remains, but, the razor sharpness of loss is dulling. What is shocking though, is the vast presence her absence leaves. It...

I hit a milestone last week. I was wondering when it was going to happen. It was the 3-month date. I switched from tracking time in...

I've always thought my Jesus story was kind of boring...No lightning bolts, no rebellious youth turning to God...It seems I've always...

This is a hard conversation. I'm struggling with reconciling the act of suicide, and my amazing daughter. This is so hard. It's not just...

Well, I went from Thursday morning, until Wednesday night, during worship, without crying. That's a long time. In 11 weeks...that felt...

I'm struggling. Maybe it's the let-down from meeting Sailor. Maybe I'm beginning my third month without Pandi. Maybe it's...grief. But,...

To the Village who helped us raise our children; the Village who holds us now... I'm sorry. I know your response, but I still need to say...

Again, I began the day with tears...but today, a trail of joyous tears stream my face. What a feeling...one I've missed for awhile. Joy....

I want to be mad at Andrea, but my heart hurts too much with love and loss...I can't even be mad. Is this how our Father feels? I have...

I'm driven by choices. I'm very conscious of my choices right now, probably more so than I ever have been. Today, I choose... I'm still...

I have had no desire to write to you, but today, I do. I NEED to write to you once a week. I feel it. It is necessary for me. It is...

Today, is Thursday. Four weeks ago, my reality was shifted so suddenly, I couldn't breath. As Rob and I held each other in worship last...

Today is hard....Rob says I'm overthinking...more than likely. So, today I write to you. As I said, I'm an external processor so...