It's been a very hard 6 weeks. I struggled. Trying to dance in the mourning. It wasn't happening, but I was trying...and hopeful.
Joy began bubbling on Pi day last week. A feeling of hope and life. Even after seeing my brother, trips to DC, my granddaughter and my boys and their wonderful wives, I felt happiness, but this bubbling joy that is so much who I am...
I feel it this week.
And you know what? Vitamin D is a thing! I had no idea!!! But, grief has changed me and now I know!
I have a dear friend who has struggled with this for many, many years...and she told me "Take your Vitamin D! And you might need a Vitamin-D light." I might; I'll have to watch next fall.
The blue sky, the sun, oh my goodness! It is so good!
Three weeks ago I was emotionally unable to have dinner with friends, work a shift at the pub, I cried through Yoga.
Today is a new day!
Will it last? For awhile. But, I do know this...Joy WILL come! Hold on friends, find the sun. Run to the Son.
My new reality has not changed, but my ability and capacity to hold it has.
So, for today, I bask in the feeling. And when it's not there, that's when faith comes in. I know, I know that I know it will reappear! Sometimes farther apart than others, but, Joy will come.